Those of you who have followed my teaching would have read about my difficulties as a child, and indeed of my stress even in my working life as an adult. It was this aspect that had driven me to look for the answers and why I devoted my life to realising the truth - to find out 'what's it all about'.
Well, at the time of writing this I am 37 years old, have been Enlightened (or whichever term you wish to use) 7 years now, and I have only recently discovered that I am Dyslexic.
Even once I had stepped over the threshold and into this awakened state of knowing what happens in this reality (aged 30), I still felt like a piece of the puzzle was missing. I still wondered: Why did I find learning at school (and even often just speaking) difficult as a child? What made me so different that I would not accept the hardships that everyone else accepted as perfectly normal? What was it that enabled me the apparent ability to see above problems, to see things from a new perspective, even as a child when adults were telling me something had to be done a certain way? And why did I seem to be more susceptible than others to stress?...
...And what was it that gave me the (sometimes uncomfortable) ability to directly experience what others were feeling?
Well, it turns out that these are all not uncommon characteristics of Dyslexia. (I say it in that way because the symptoms of dyslexia are quite varied and often differ from person to person).
There are numerous websites out there specifically about Dyslexia, but it seemed only right that I should create a page about my findings...
So, what is Dyslexia,
Simply put, one mainstream explanation of dyslexia is that a person with the condition uses less of the left hand side of their brain and more of the right than is 'normal'.
The left (so it is said) is the area more 'object' focussed, and used for learning, language, sense of linear time, is required for academic achievement and is generally very useful in this physical world to get by. However, the right hand side is the area which sees the 'whole picture', is creative, imaginative, intuitive, sensitive, psychic, etc.
So, a dyslexic person is likely to not use the left side of their brain to read and write as much as other people, and this is why they tend to have trouble in this area. Using more of the creative, imaginative side of the brain simply to read words on a page is always going to be a struggle (for example).
But, if you are looking for a solution to a problem, especially one that has not been faced before by the people present, the right sided thinker is likely to come up with a whole range of possible solutions, perhaps before the left sided thinkers have finished trying to understand the problem. (Just don't ask them to take the notes of the meeting.. :o) )
It seems therefore that I had an advantage in my quest to reach Enlightenment or Self-Realisation; a head start, if you like. The psychic at The College Of Psychic Studies told me during my sitting when I was 17 years old, that my struggles, and abilities, were due to already being on a high spiritual level due to meditation in past lives, and that I would progress very quickly. It may be that the past lives aspect is correct and, if this is the case (within this 'story'), it may be that, like so many truths, there has to be a mirror in this reality of something deeper; and the dyslexia is mine.
I write this only to acknowledge that this is the case. I now know why I have found just 'living' so difficult throughout my life, and what it was that drove me to find some reason behind it all.